Sat Sri Akaal
(Truth is Timeless)
My heart is full with love and gratitude for the Universe, for I have experienced the birthing of my daughter and the dying of my mother.
What an honor to be your first born, Ma. I’d do this all over again in a heartbeat, and not change a thing. It was all perfect just the way it was. It was, it is and it will be. In the realm of living in the “Hukum” (Divine Ordain), there are either blessings or blessings in disguise. It’s seeing the half empty glass, half full and also experiencing the empty half without judgement.
Together we found order in disorder, understanding in misunderstanding and ease in disease. We conquered when we surrendered. We found abundant love, only after calling off the search. We found there is science in the conscience and that science without it, is a con.
Together we churned the sweet lies and the bitter truth with many hours of meditation, to find the lies to be bitter and the truth, sweet. It is not death, but it is this sweet TRUTH that set us (both) free. We stopped asking ‘why am I dying’ and started asking ‘vich duniya kahey aaya, vich duniya kahey aaya?’ – Asa Di Vaar (why did you come into this world, why did you come into this world?).
As each dawn breaks, I sob to the ascending rhythms of Asa Di Vaar ( a Sikh meditation prayer sung to very specific ‘Raagas’ of Indian classical music ) and dissolve into absolute stillness as the day unfolds.
I miss you already.
You stood fair and tall, wrapped in grace and dignity
I am your shadow
You were boxed in
So I could break the mold
You were a pacifist
So I could be an activist
You were quiet
So I could be your voice
You were creative
I am your work of art
Your shoes fit me
But I can never fill them
I am because you were
You are because I am, I am
I could hear you, when you no longer could speak
You could feel me, when you no longer could see
I am because you were
You are because I am, you are
Farewell my soulmate, farewell, Ma.[My Ma, Simrit passed away listening to Asa Di Vaar at 5.55 am on Nov 21, steeped in love, prayers and morphine. May her soul rest in peaceful eternity.]
With prayers and gratitude,
N.B. : “Asa di Vaar” means Ode to Hope. Asa is hope and Vaar is Ode. “Asa” is also the name of the specific Raaga, the verses are sung to, specifically in the morning.